For the longest time I remember my "faith journey" feeling more like a roller coaster.  I would get so frustrated because I knew that was not what God had for me.  I knew that if Jesus Christ the same yesterday, and today, and forever (Hebrews 13:8), then there was no reason for me, united with the Lord ( 1 Corinthians 6:17) to have what felt like such high moments of triumph and then low moments of defeat and confusion.  I knew the enemy was a defeated foe, yet somehow there were times when I wound up feeling defeated.  It wasn't until recently that I had the full circle biblical revelation of what was going on.

In James 1:6 it says to ask in faith without any wavering or doubt...without hesitation...because the one who does not ask fully persuaded is like the billowing sea, tossed about.  No wonder my walk was feeling like more of a roller coaster than the adventure God wanted to go on with me.  Not only was it a roller coaster but I was not seeing answers to my I kept reading, I was given my answer, James 1:7-8 "For truly let not such a person (a wavering person) imagine that he will receive anything he asks for from the Lord.  For being as he is a man of two minds (hesitating, dubious, irresolute) he is unstable and unreliable and uncertain about everything he thinks, feels, and decides."  I was living double-minded-- operating in my own head knowledge half the time, when I needed to be operating in the mind of Christ (1 Corinthians 2:16) full-time.  As I began to seek God about walking in that peace and rest I so desired and knew He had for me, more truths were revealed.  In Hebrews 3, we are cautioned to not have an evil heart that refuses to trust God.  There were moments in the roller coaster where I was unsure of God's promises for me personally.  I realized that the down moments directly correlated with the times in which I refused to trust (or hesitated to believe) that specific things would come to pass.  Praise God I learned that there IS a way to enter into the rest He promises and stay there!  "For we CONTINUE to share in ALL Christ has for us so long as we STEADILY MAINTAIN until the end the trust with which we began."  (Hebrews 3:14 JB Phillips)  My roller coaster ride was due to the lack of maintaining my trust and faith.  In order to daily walk in a continuance of all Christ had for me, I needed to get on a maintenance program to keep my trust and faith in check in Him.  Consistency is possible, and is God's desire for us!  Renewing my mind with the Word, being fully persuaded that God is who He says He is and I am who He says I am, have brought me through huge strides in maintaining all Christ has for me.  So choose to walk trusting, and you will walk steady!

Savannah Martin

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